Today was my day off, yet I couldn’t really enjoy it. Frustration is a good word to summarize what I feel. I’m out for a year now, but not everyone knows about it still. As an international student, I connected first with other international students, before I made local friends. I came out to my friends before I did to my family. Once, I came out for a small group of friends, and they received me pretty well. I felt confident enough to take a step further. I came out to another group of friends, which did not respond that well. Mostly because I knew them for a short period of time. One of the guys asked me if I was trying to help him just because I was attracted to him. Then, he stopped talking to me. I enjoy helping others. I really do. I became an RA because I want to help other students to succeed in college. I had people to help me to adapt to life in another country, and I want to be that person for those who need some help. Yet, I don’t have second intentions because really, to wait for something out of it is extremely foolish. I get cards and hugs at the end, and that’s it. But again, I do it because I enjoy it. Not because I want something in exchange. Anyway, that’s not what has been frustrating me. On Wednesday, a Korean guy called me on Facebook. He came to my University on my freshman year, and we have been in touch since then. He was telling me to go to Korea to pick women and I told him I didn’t like girls. I though he knew, yet he didn’t. For my surprise he asked me for a picture of my penis. I said yes, but I was suspicious about it. He said he was gonna send it to me on kakao. I sent him on kakao a random one I found on Google because this story sounded weird to be. He said he wanted to video chat and see it live so he could show me his as well. I didn’t show him there. He called me once and hung up. Then, he called me again, on his computer. He kept asking to see it, but I kept denying. The conversation kept disconnecting, but he would call me right away. He told me obscene things he wanted to do and kept asking me about my sexual life. At first, I thought he was closeted, and wanted to know about how was to be out of the closet. Then, he started talking about the bible and saying I was going to hell. I was taking it friendly, but he kept getting more aggressive. He started to cuss me in Korean, and all of the sudden said he had to go to bed. Before I hung up, I heard a tone that sounded familiar. I was intrigued about it, so I started to suspect he wasn’t closeted, but that he was up to something else. I asked him what he was going to do with the picture if he wasn’t gay. He said he was going to show to his friends, and tell everyone I was gay. I wasn’t too worried about it because I am out of the closet and it wasn’t my picture anyway. I asked him why he was doing that and he wouldn’t reply. I gave up trying to get any answer because, well, it didn’t seem like a problem to me really. I got worried today, Friday, as he messaged me some screen shots of his conversation with some of his Korean friends. I literally had no clue what was going on because I don’t understand Korean. He said his friends disliked me, and that I was crazy (his attempt to call me mentally ill, I guess?). I asked him why he was doing that and he said “we hate gays.” His intention is to out me, yet again I am out of the closet. He knows I plan on going to Korea after I graduate, and he said that if I dare to go to Korea, I will be killed. He said that “Is” will kill me. I told him how pathetic he was and how I didn’t care about it. He said he was going to send messages and screenshots to the entire staff of the international office, where I worked for three years. Before I blocked him, I got one last message, in which he said that he had videos too. The familiar tone was from a screen capture software. I knew the sound because a classmate uses it to post stuff on YouTube. I don’t know who “Is” are and I don’t bother to know. I don’t care he outs me to his entire country. I don’t care he hates me now. Yet, this made me very upset. What I don’t get is this irrational hate. He literally started the conversation on Wednesday thanking me for being patient and kind to talk to him (because he’s English is not good, so it takes him a while to express himself), then it changed in seconds to hate messages and plans to “ruin” my life. I wasn’t too worried about this whole situation, but I am now. I worry he may try to do something in the future. I worry about where he can upload those things. I worry about what can happen just because as much as I thought he was cool about it, I don’t know how the other person who sees it can react to it. Even though it’s really just me telling him that being gay is ok. Although, I know this is just me overthinking, and that things may be alright at the end, I don’t like this situation in general. He said he sent it to one of my close friends and that she was disgusted by it. Still, we talk regularly, and as a matter of fact, we were texting each other a few minutes because I got the screen shot. She did not change her behavior or anything. I’ll never understand this, nor why this shit is so petty. It’s just upsetting being on my 20s and still have some highschool drama like happening. I guess it’s a drama if I let it be a drama.